I'm just going to say this part flat out- Austin, I know you read my blogs, okay, I'm fine with that, but just shut the fuck up - nothing I write has to do with you, so don't get too excited and chill out. Why the hell do you still read my blogs anyways?
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It's getting too overwhelming and the saddest part is that there isn't enough time in the day to get into specifics. I decided that today, I'm going to speak the truth. I'm going to let it all out, or at least let out the breifest hardest pinpointing summary of everything. Because of you, my life by far has been ruined and I'm not willing to let this go on any further.
What's the worst part? No, not that I'm hurt. But because we're supposed to be so close. I hate feeling what you don't feel. I hate feeling the heartache you're supposed to feel when you hurt me.
Because of you, I envy others. I wish our bond was as close as theirs. No, I'm not oblivious to your pain and your strife and your stress and your agony, but you are to mine. Never have you given me a hand to hold, a shoulder to lean on, encouragement, or hope. You're blind to everyone but yourself. Just look around you.
What did you give me? My pain. My strife. My stress. My agony. Every negativity that I became so fond of came from you. Why must I, of all people, receive this from you? Honestly, I can't say that I have given you the world to hold in your palms, but you haven't given me anything at all.
I don't know anymore. I'm here. You're here. My life is going nowhere. Yours can't go anywhere. I would free myself on this, but I refuse to. There's no point.
***I tried to let everything out- I don't think you got it. No one did. Forget it, I'm just going to keep things to myself for another lifetime. Things wont change.
Fact Of The Day: I hate you and me.
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