"You're not real"

I miss you
but then again I don't.

& You?
I want you
but then again I don't.
Because all you are is a fictional character in my head.

I see you in a way
where you're not real
yet in a meaningless blinded way
where you're perfect.

After a while, this dreamland I walk through melts away
and reality paints itself in front of my eyes - I'm left to be hit with the truth.
& my smile slowly fades as my vision becomes distorted with idealistic ways...