Anxiety raped my mindset. The future is left unnoted for; I'm stuck in the past. I scrutinize every aspect of what I can remember. The thoughts make my heart race, why am I so scared? I'm trembling in blazing weather because of you. I fear for what I'll never be able to reach. Stupidity. Like a fool, I gave up everyone and everything that mattered to me in the near past, forcing others to give up on me as well, just so I'd be able to reach further deep into what used to be. What gets at me the most is what you might say in response. Maybe I'll lose a lot more than I expected.. Maybe I'll gain more than I have sacrificed.
